Aug
9th
2012

Whispered prayers and lost transmissions.

 

I have no idea what I’m doing.

Being totally honest and serious here. I’ve decided to start journaling again in an effort to keep track of the progress I make as I fight my way through a new collection of songs.

It’s obviously been a while since my Recovery (RCVRY) album and I’m finally of the conviction that I need to record again.

So much has happened in my life in recent years that I hardly recognize the landscape. Marriage, parenthood, booking and touring for concerts, producing in the studio for other artists and engaging with our church in leading some of the music…lots of shifts and turns. Loads of exhaustion and hard work… mostly good just really challenging and stretching.

Then the songwriting fits and starts… vision then darkness. Flickers of creative light. There and then it’s gone.

That’s been the rhythm of life around here and I’ve found it hard to follow all the chord changes.

I can only speak for myself, so here goes:

It’s very difficult to make honest, compelling art that moves people because you basically have to die over and over and over again. You have to surrender yourself to the process while simultaneously facing yourself. The best art (I think) is the most honest. The most human. And getting down to the core of being human is very difficult because we cover ourselves with all sorts of things that need to be ejected and removed in order to see what is really going on beneath the surface of the world we live in. It’s kind of a simple thing I guess but everything in your nature fights against the simplicity of it.

For a number of years now, I have been fixed on themes of renewal, restoration, redemption…resurrection.

So that is where I am headed creatively. Walking straight into the belly of the beast!

Headlong into my own heart with a searchlight and a satchel.

Who knows what I’ll find but I’ll know it when I see it. The older I get, the more I realize how deeply confusing and disorienting the creative process can be. You wander around for a long time before you know where you are going.

So other than these trail markers, I don’t really know what I’m doing.

So I’m doing what I always do… which is not knowing what I’m doing.

The only thing I know is that I have to do it.

 

 

12 Responses to “Whispered prayers and lost transmissions.”

    Hey man,

    It’s a strange thing, but I was listening to Recovery a bit last night, washing dishes. And then today for some reason I checked your blog. And there you were. :)

    I feel you on the honesty and creativity stuff. I’ve been writing some new songs lately and getting a lot more engaged in my musical future. I’m learning more about who I am as an artist and how to really move forward. It’s exciting, but like your journey, challenging and confusing. And worth every minute. :)

    Have you read Steven Pressfield’s new book Turning Pro yet? It’s so good.

    Josh

    Josh- great to hear from you! Yes I’ve heard of that book but haven’t read it yet. Thing is– exhaustion has been the main challenge for me in this phase of my life. I totally get and agree with most everything Pressfield has to say about the writing life.

    Miss you man.

    Hey man, I absolutely loved Recovery. Definitely looking forward to some new stuff. By the way, I saw you play once in Charlottesville, but I live up in Detroit now. You should come do a show up here sometime!

    Hey Jeremy,

    Looking forward to the next chapter!

    your fans and friends want nothing more than for you to create are that is true to yourself. (hopefully that makes you feel more freedom than pressure). Excited for what’s to come Jerry!

    cant wait to see what this is going to turn into! RCVRY was an album that helped me through a tough time. Its so human and biblical at the same time. thank you

    thank you all. so encouraging! I’m working hard to get this stuff out of my head. (the music that is…) Can’t thank you enough for your support.

    Just stumbled onto the Space Between living & dying today on iTunes. Dealing with a broken and painful (and ultimately wrong) relationship right now, so your words spoke volumes to me. God used you to remind me that I am ready for and need a change–that my wallowing in the aftermath of brokenness and my wishing for a different outcome and different reality has gone on too long. thanks. keep writing and singing. You are God’s instrument. Blessings to you and nurture your gift of writing even if you feel you don’t know what you are doing–God does….

    Just found the music on iTunes. It speaks to me. We have a recovery group that I have been involved with and into my second year and that is why I searched recovery in the search box. When I find music that touches my heart in the season of my life it lifts me up and allows god to continue his work in my life. I pray that god blesses you in your next season of life.

  1. Bill Marras Says:
  2. Jeremy -

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    Your extremely small house show via Chad V. in Medina last year was great. I pray that your wrestling has been productive in a truly inspired work. ‘Can’t wait to see what is next.

    Grace & Blessings …
    Bill Marras

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